Did you know? That even those you can touch might not be real. 

Because sometimes, you need to step back a little to see the bigger picture. 

There's more to a scene than what you can fit in your own frame.

Consistent Nightmare

My dreams have become too realistic lately when it used to be a place where the impossible can happen.

Now, all I can dream of is that I can't reach you... because you are no longer there.

That I just kept looking for you because you're already gone.

Engineered Fate

I have a confession to make

It’s Funny, It’s scary

It’s up to you on how to make out of it

But before you judge me

Know that my feelings are true

Even though it was not fate

Even though I forced them so we’ll push through

I never liked the movies we’ve watched

I only pretended to be wowed

So that you can say we’re soo much alike

And that we can probably spend more time on another one

It was not a coincidence.

No. I went there on purpose

That kind of music is not to my liking

But I want you to feel that we have a lot in common

I did a lot of things

So that I can make you see

That in a world where you want a fairytale

I’m the one who’s ready to make that deal

But I guess you cannot fight back

When the true hands of the clock do its work.

When the true hands of fate start to mold the things that should be

Because no matter how I manipulate the things about myself

I can never change that one thing…

And that is for YOU to love me.

Options

"Commitment is not choosing LOVE, it's choosing what is RIGHT"

Random Thoughts: "On the Safe Side"

Should I call myself strong since I haven't changed anything I believe is true or should I call myself ignorant since my perception and my beliefs never really take me anywhere?



Will I even convince myself that the only reason why I act like this is because of what other people might think,I guess not. I was brought up this way, it just scares me that those people who taught me to be like this were altered by time, will I have the same fate?



I've always though that money is nothing, living a simple life will do, just be with your family, sing karaokeat home when you don't have money... advice each other that God doesn't give usanything we can't handle. But time will change some things you've grown fondof. At some point it turned out that you have nothing when you don't havemoney. But these twists in my life never really changed me; the hard part is,if you are the only one who remained unchanged.



For 19 years of my life (and forthe years to come as well) , if I remain to be religious and pray everyday, if I remain to be a good daughter who always obey and if I remain with dreaming of achieving of just SIMPLE things... will my life change for the better just because I've decided to take society's perception of what a GOOD person should be?



It makes me wonder if the only thing I'm missing is the guts to move out of my comfort zone or is it just so happens that at some point, there's still a tinge of hope that (even though it had failed me already in 19 yrs of my life) everything will be fine again, or maybe will turn out to be better if I'll remain to be myself and not change.



Droplets Nightmare

Ladies and Gentlemen, Summer, is officially over! Can you hear the drip dropping noise of the rain now?

But hey! There is one thing in common about these two seasons: Water!!

Beaches, pools and such, and well, RAIN…

But anyway since summer’s over, let me tell you something about mr. rainy droplets

Very few people enjoys the rain, some sentimental individuals considers it as one of saddest part of the year. Why? Petty reason would be rain symbolizes tears… so you cry? Then it’s sad? Ahaha anyway, I always love rain (rain of fullhouse will do too), and there are so many reasons to love the rain: one would be classes are usually suspended durin this season (but it really sucks whenever they still thinks that it’s safe to go to school, hay I hate it when that happens), second is that, well I just love the rain, would like to walk under the rain. (corny)

But a lot has changed already, probably changes over the years, changes in how people think, changes about the weather (global warming), well everything changes basically (and notice how the thought of this blogpost changes aswell^^ ahaha).

One big turn in my life would be what happened last year, let me tell you a lil bit of my experience with Mr. rainy droplets, it was October 26 of 2009 (and it was a Saturday, damnit! I remember) when I was at Tapa King with my officemates, we’re just waiting for the rain to stop, but ofcourse, it didn’t, and yada yada yada and so we skip the soul cleansing session there (know what I mean?)

’was on my way home already but unfortunately no jeeps nor anything is planning to pass by my house, and it was raining hard, I was holding my umbrella, but it was no use, hay was still soaking wet because of the rain. Luckily after a few hrs (or minutes, I might be exaggerating and not noticing) we were able to get a cab.

Getting to FCM is an adventure, we took a few turns to the left, then right and sometimes we go around circles (or probably I was just too drunk so I was too dizzy?). but after - I don’t know how long exactly, we passed by merry homes. At last! I’m a few minutes closer to a hot bath and my soft bed, well, that’s what I thought, when I got out of the cab I summoned a tryk (ACCIO TRICYCLE!!) and advised him of my address, but he told me that we cannot go on that route since the streets are flooded already, so I insisted for him to find another route (that’s what you get when you talk to employees with no sleep).

So after going on a few turns again, finally, just a few minutes away and I can feel home, but someone stopped the tryk and told me that I can no longer go that way, it’s flooded, OUR houses were submerged under water already, nobody is there, everyone left…

It was a nightmare… I never thought that that would ever happen, but I didn’t think about the house that much, nor the stuffs I have, I haven’t slept yet either (since I’m working nightshift.. duh??) and I didn’t even feel tired. I was thinking of my family back then (here’s the emo part), ‘got no cellphone (since I’m thinking that cp has no use to me since I’ve lost him.. lost who?), I don’t know where they are, even my relatives doesn’t know where my family was back then. So from 11am ‘til 6PM I just sat in a corner, waiting for someone to give me a clue, after those 7 Long Hours of shock and despair, I was told that THEY are safe.

They were worried about me and so am I (was I ba? worried about them ah). We didn’t think about the stuff we’ve lost during that time, it’s not a question of how much we’ve lost, but it’s more of How can we start over

When the storm passed, and we’ve started to recover that’s the time we’ve realized that we’ve lost… A LOT.

After the flood, you don’t have time to sit around, it’s time to clean up the mess of what Ondoy have left, we need to get on with our lives, so first step would be: House cleaning^^ one of the challenges back then is “can you open your door”, actually it’s more like “are you sure you want to open the door?”. Well, one thing’s for sure, I don’t want to be the one to open it.

After a few days of cleaning, bleaching and such, yey! Muck and mud was removed, some left as stain.. as a reminder of the incident…

It’s like General Cleaning implemented during Martial Law (it’s a must and everyone’s doin it). And though you’re done cleaning the mess, the house is no longer the same house that I’ve loved to go back to when I’m tired, it’s no longer the same, not just by appearance but you’ll feel that it’s no longer your home. Hay during that general cleaning (ahaha panindigan na ang general cleaning ) You have to let go of the stuffs that you’ve kept for years aswell, since they’ve turned out to be full of mud and USELESS (and full of worms just like my notes for the books I read^^).

Well, that’s over, and it’s almost a year now since that happened. And it’s all coming back due to same sequence of events. I know that nobody wants that to happen again… especially to those who were affected by it.

So let’s not just hope for that not occur again, let’s also Pray and do something about it (if you know what I mean^^)

It will remain as a huge event in my life and maybe to yours aswell, I can even remember it when I sleep…

Now, To those who’ve experienced the same tragedy as we had, my question for you is: Don’t you have nightmares when it’s raining hard?

Status: rain is finally over, thank you past time, but yayks! I need to watch smile Honey

Ambigram of the Big Bang Theory

Illuminati Diamond

Warning: The ideas of this post is flying all over the Place (I don’t even know the connection of the Big Bang Theory to this, maybe it’s because it had exploded leaving ideas flying)

Unlike Robert Langdon, my interest with regards to the Illuminati is not because of the most powerful currency in the world (which is the U.S. Dollar Bill), my idea of finding more about the Illuminati is because of the book Angels and Demons (The smartest book I’ve ever read, cause it has its own brain haha).

The question that I want to answer in this post is “What is interesting about the Illuminati?”, I don’t really know if I could answer that myself, because that’s what I’m trying to find out right now (so this is nonsense? hmm).

Everything written in History books are interesting, I just don’t know what made the Illuminatus special… Is it because they are against the Catholic Beliefs or any beliefs whatsoever? or is it only because the Illuminati was used effectively by Dan Brown in his book? (I hope I could answer at least one question before I end this post). The reason why I became interested with the Illuminati is because of the people (allegedly) involved in this Atheist Group (they are atheist right? no doubt about it!). Take for example Galileo, the said Grand Master of the Illuminati, I’ve done some research about his connection with the Illuminati but of course I cannot totally rely on that (because I got it on the internet. where conspiracy is very rampant).

hmm now, Why do people started writing things about Galileo’s connection with the brotherhood? Is it because it is the truth they’ve been wanting to unveil for centuries? or is it because they were taken away by the book of Dan Brown (just like me=).)?

Dan Brown’s Angels and Demons is one great mistery that I’m trying to figure out. The book is too loaded. The construction of it was very interesting, because all the characters are real (except for the protagonist of course). That’s why it became a great mystery, why would one, chose to contend the beliefs of many individuals and use real characters (well KNOWN characters to be exact) in his novel despite of the risks that it might cause the author? well, It’s either the book has its own brain or the author has just unveiled the truth behind all the secrets. Because, one, wouldn’t have the courage to write anything so persuading if he doesn’t have any basis.

But, Either way, it wouldn’t matter, because every person’s faith should be like an ambigram, rotating it 180degrees wouldn’t change the message, it’s true that its fascinating (Even amazing) to find out that the greatest minds of History are greater than what we’ve expected (well, it’s actually beyond expectations) that even the church that we knew since the day we were born have hidden secrets that contradicts its very principle. BUt at the end of the day it’s you who will decide, not wether to believe the Illuminati-God Conflict or not, but to decide if you are ready to take the responsibilty of Faith (yes! Faith is a responsibility, I should say). Put this in mind; if you’re faith is highly affected by what you’ve read about the Illuminati-God Conflict, it’s not faith at all, that’s taking sides. Because you’re taking the side of the one who has more to say. Faith is something that you have (attain, I don’t know the right term for this) with your heart, not with your mind.

So guys, that’s the end of our lesson about faith which started differently (totally different). But hey! that’s the very answer to the question why the Illuminati is very interesting. they became interesting because it is a great way to test our faith wether the things we’ve read about the Illuminati-God Conflict is True, or just pure conspiracy.

“Keep your faith, like an Ambigram”

God Bless

well, that’s all for now, Promise, I’ll make my later posts interesting (without the ideas flying all over the place). Thanks for reading my 1st post.

Special Thanks to :

Mr. Dan Brown for enlightenment=)