Should I call myself strong since I haven't changed anything I believe is true or should I call myself ignorant since my perception and my beliefs never really take me anywhere?
Will I even convince myself that the only reason why I act like this is because of what other people might think,I guess not. I was brought up this way, it just scares me that those people who taught me to be like this were altered by time, will I have the same fate?
I've always though that money is nothing, living a simple life will do, just be with your family, sing karaokeat home when you don't have money... advice each other that God doesn't give usanything we can't handle. But time will change some things you've grown fondof. At some point it turned out that you have nothing when you don't havemoney. But these twists in my life never really changed me; the hard part is,if you are the only one who remained unchanged.
For 19 years of my life (and forthe years to come as well) , if I remain to be religious and pray everyday, if I remain to be a good daughter who always obey and if I remain with dreaming of achieving of just SIMPLE things... will my life change for the better just because I've decided to take society's perception of what a GOOD person should be?
It makes me wonder if the only thing I'm missing is the guts to move out of my comfort zone or is it just so happens that at some point, there's still a tinge of hope that (even though it had failed me already in 19 yrs of my life) everything will be fine again, or maybe will turn out to be better if I'll remain to be myself and not change.
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